Now before you start thinking that I don’t love Jesus anymore or that I’ve gone mad over the past couple of months since my last post, just hear me out.
Since high school, I’ve always had a plan for my life. I had timelines of when I wanted to accomplish certain goals, such as starting my career and getting married. Let’s just say, I’ve had a reality check that things don’t always go according to plans. One the goals in my life that haven’t gone how I’ve planned, is my career. At different times of my life, I wanted to be a: teacher, forensic scientist, public defender, consultant, public relations assistant, and more recently, a research analyst in the Criminal Justice field.
My current job is not my dream job, but a job I happened to stumble upon. Four years later, I’ve really been praying to God to get another job. I started feeling anxious and fearful that if I didn’t switch over to the Criminal Justice field soon, that those employers would continue to look over my resume for lack of work experience in that field. I began to pray to God that I wanted to be at a job where I can occasionally travel, be passionate about what I did, directly help individuals, have good benefits (ex: insurance, paid leave), and have a shorter commute.
Fast forward to early yesterday morning, I was talking to God while driving to church for 21 days of prayer. I was expressing my disbelief about how there are individuals that were not doing their jobs, yet still wanted to get paid; and how their lack of urgency or care, affects individuals and their families. Just as I was speaking those words, God dropped in my mind, “sounds like you’re passionate to me.” Just as He said that, I shook my head in disbelief, “I can’t stand you Jesus lol.”
And this is what I mean by that statement. I have been doing everything to get away from this job. However, lately, God has been showing me that the things I desired in a job, where in this very job. I might have the opportunity to travel this year, I am passionate about helping individuals as they retire, and I have really great benefits. My commute is not short, but I don’t have to drive in everyday, so I guess that’s a win.
Pastor Daniel preached a message a couple weeks ago about an Inconvenient Calling, that really convicted me. What if the situation you are running from (except in dangerous situations), is actually where God wants to use you? It says in Proverbs 19:21, that “many are the plans in a man’s heart, but the Lord’s will prevail.” Then in Isaiah 55: 9 it says, “For just as the Heavens are higher than the Earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.” While it’s not my desire to stay at this job, I know that God has great plans and intentions for my life.
If you take anything away from this post, it should be this…that God knows what He’s doing in your life. When He’s telling you to stay or move or speak, do it. While His plan may not be packaged the way you want it to look, it will be 10,000% better; for “every good and perfect gift comes down from the father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shadow of turning (James 1:17).” Remember: you are chosen, You are loved, and God is not against you, but for you. He will work everything out for your good…even when it looks like He’s not.